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I don't know what's wrong with me. I've got the blahs... blues... whatever you want to call them. I'm so opposite of everyone in my family. They come alive in the spring and summer, then hibernate in the fall and winter. I prefer to hibernate in the spring/summer and come alive in the fall/winter months.
Don't get me wrong... I love the sunshine! I love the flowers and the dogwood trees and the lilac bushes! I love having my house opened up and feeling the breezes. The only thing is... Gidget suffers from severe allergies. I can't keep my house opened up without making her suffer. I have to keep the central air on as well because of her asthma. I'd much rather have my child able to breathe than a house filled with sunshine and summer breezes! Yes, call me crazy, but that's a trade off I'm very willing to make! (If only the electric company would give us a price break for medical conditions!)
I think it's this heat wave that's making me feel this way. High temps & humidity just don't mix well with this gal! The MS symptoms like to show off (they must be spring/summer lovers as well). I am so fatigued all day long, yet I'm up all night because I just can't get to sleep. CRAZY!
Now I know what you rational thinking people want me to do. My family has given me all the "correct" ways to mend my troubles. "Go to bed early. Set your alarm for no later than 6:30 a.m. Force yourself to just lie in bed even if you're wide awake. When your alarm goes off, force yourself out of bed. Do this for seven days straight & we guarantee you that you will have this cured."
Guess what -- IT DOESN'T WORK! I have tried that. I just can't seem to get them to understand that my body doesn't work like a normal body does. The MS has a mind of it's own and doesn't listen to rational advice. In fact, when rationality is introduced in any way, it attacks my body with a vengeance! I can't just lie in bed wide awake. My body begins to ache all over!
Okay, enough "woe is me" for tonight. I'm going to go back to bed. Maybe God will help me to sleep. I've been praying that He will regulate my sleep because I sure can't do it no matter how hard I try!
I actually have a lot to blog about... when I'm not exhausted and able to think more clearly I do have some happier things to post. :)
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Okay, I'm convinced; we're sisters separated at birth! Everyone on FB is writing about opening their windows today, and I can't do it because of allergies/asthma. Our electric bill was at an all-time high last month, and you're absolutely right about how the electric company should cut us a break for medical reasons. I'd much rather open the windows when it's nice outside!
I wish you lived next door; we could sit and talk all night. :) I fell asleep at around 4:00 this morning. I have fallen asleep sitting at the dinner table or in the middle of reading a book to the kids, but I can't sleep at night. Like you, the pain gets too bad to just stay in bed. Hard to believe I don't have MS...
I'm praying for you as always. GracieGirl wore one of Gidget's dresses to a party last weekend. SO cute!! I'm working on getting pictures posted...
As long as I can remember I've been a night person. I was a night person before I started working nights some 30 years ago and it's still difficult on my days off!
I've been keeping my curtains, windows and doors closed. Also keep the lights off to some degree to keep the air from working so hard and it does help.
So maybe your having some "seasonal affective disorder" as well, called SAD. It's a real illnes (depression). Most have it in the winter time.
Anyway, (((hugs))) and hope you get to feeling some better soon!
Blessings,
Debra
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